You might remember me talking about my friend Rachael and how I was thinking of using sky lanterns to honor her on the 5th year anniversary of her death. Well, I never did this, I think I am still not ready to do anything 'official' because that makes it real - does that make sense?

I dunno, I think this Samhain I really need to try and see if I can connect with her, there is still so much negativity I feel towards the whole thing :(